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 Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Moments so dear
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
Six hundred minutes
How do you measure – measure a year?

How about love?
Measure in love.

These lyrics are from The Broadway Musical, Rent. One of my favorites! This song, Seasons of Love (click to listen), wonderfully frames how one can choose to look at life and in particular one year. So as I sit down today and reflect on my life, I will choose to measure this past year in love.

My 1st Tattoo
My 1st Tattoo

July 21, 2016, I was in Wisconsin on a road trip with a man who I loved but our relationship had become toxic and filled with so much that wasn’t loving. In a minute I had decided it was enough. I had to choose me. I packed up myself and said goodbye leaving him in Wisconsin and I set out on the road to return home. I returned home to Minnesota and it took 6 hours. But these past five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes has been a journey home to my true self!

With the Lens of Love

  • Love surrounded me like a blanket that was soft and cuddly.
  • Love gave me the courage to leave an abusive experience to step into an experience full of opportunities to love myself.
  • Love offered me unconditional love of my family who held my hand and comforted my heart.
  • Love gave me more road trips full of laughter, exploration, joy, and sweetness.
  • Love showed me that I was worthy.
  • Love taught me that it was time to heal the wounds of my childhood.
  • Love gave me the perfect people to witness and encourage my rebirth and reclaim myself.
  • Love allowed me to gracefully accept help from my blood family and my soul family.
  • Love gifted me new friends who reflect back my creative, adventurous, and loving self.
  • Love offered me over and over again the opportunity to choose myself (and I did!)
  • Love was my constant companion through the depths of my pain and the heights of my joy.
  • Love is ever present – eternal, unconditional, and very real!

Today, I sit in a beautiful life that I created through my strength and commitment to know who I am. I am more in love than I ever was with that man who sat next to me last year as I road tripped around. I am so grateful for the entirety of the experience. For it, all is my life. It all is my choice. It all created who I am in this moment. THANK YOU, Love!  Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

My 13-year-old self and I are having so much fun. She is the key to my understanding and my acceptance of who I have always been – born to be! There is no better, more perfect place to do this integration, healing, and rebirthing than Minnesota. It is the place my soul chose to incarnate this life. It’s the first place I put my feet on the ground. It is the place where I learned what it meant to be human. My birthplace was uniquely gifted to me.  Now, I am ready to receive the fullness of my birthright!

Photo Credit: Autumn Lee Studios
Photo Credit: Autumn Lee Studios

These past five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes have been lived well. I share myself with all of you because it comes naturally to me to do so. I pray that as you reflect on your life you choose to see it through the lens of love. We are all co-creators of our lives on this precious Earth. Some experiences are no fun and can cause us pain and suffering. Some experiences are full of passion, truth, and light. ALL of them were co-created by you so choose to see the opportunity, feel the feelings, and rise! Rise up and out of the choices that do not support your Highest expression. Set yourself free of any and all conditioning so you can authentically love yourself.

In love, I bow my head to my heart and breathe! Xxx