A Letter to My Past


Dear Past,

It’s been a while since we connected. I don’t really know where to start but I felt like the time is right to reach out. Since I left, I’ve been healing on so many levels. Life continues to change and expand in new ways – some exciting and some more than I can imagine. I hope you are well and doing what feels good to your heart and soul.

I’m loving my life and loving myself in ways that feel beautiful. I’m grateful for all the abundant blessings in my life – incredible community, loving family, a rich faith in love and amazing joy and laughter!

Although our journey needed to come to an end, I am grateful that your presence stirred within me the desire to be more involved in the world and allow the love that is within me to be expressed in greater authenticity. I’m grateful for the painful moments as well as it’s opened my eyes and thus my soul to greater wisdom. The Goddess continues to hold me in her embrace and graces me with guidance.

As I own who I am and all that I have been and all that I have denied, I have discovered that my wholeness has been ever present.  Now to live in that wholeness enables me to say no more powerfully and yes more passionately. In some very meaningful ways, our time together taught me this. I didn’t say no enough and said yes out of fear or obligation. It’s a big life lesson which I am incorporating into my now.

I never need to be anything someone else wants me to be unless it’s what I want too.
I never need to step out of my authenticity to try and please someone.
I never need…for I am a precious child of the Goddess and in that I am in fullness. There is no need – only love, abundance and flow. That’s the sweetness of being the maiden, mother and crone – the everything, the all. It’s always available to assist me to living a life that honors all.

If it is true for me, then I believe it is true for all. As you said so many times, it’s “we”, “our”, “us” and that is true. In the “I” lives the eternal ALL. I’ve revisited the teachings of Ho’Oponopono and the “I” is a critical, actually essential part of the practice. As I heal and take responsibility for my part in the creation then the I activates the ALL and we are all set free! I’m Sorry. Please Forgive Me. Thank You. I Love You.

I release all anger and frustration related to our time together.
I honor that each of us did the very best we could in the moments we shared.
I accept that we were teachers to each other. I choose to learn and grow.
I embrace my bright and beautiful moment and all the richness that awaits me.
I intend to live everyday with gratitude.
I am set free.
I am at peace.
I am loved, loveable and loving.

Forever my heart to your heart,