Life is a journey…this is my attempt at capturing the next 6 weeks (December 27, 2019 – February 12, 2020). Blog posts have been written and will continue to be posted as well as videos on YouTube. Below you’ll find it all in one place.
Most Recent Posts/Videos
Sunday, March 15, 2020 – Final Thoughts
This part of the journey – surgery – comes to a completion. I’ve had time to process this overall experience and sat down to write some of those final thoughts and my personal truths. I’m left with joy, gratitude and some unknown…sounds like a good way welcome in some newness!
Friday, February 21, 2020: The other side
On day nine of post surgery, I finally had enough energy to write a blog. It’s been an amazing journey and reaching the other side of a big journey has left me feeling grateful and more aware of the blessings in my life.
Facebook posts instead of a Blog post – Jan 29 + Feb 1
Wednesday, January 29th: Such a sweet day as the workweek (M-F) is almost half over. It also feels extra important as it marks 14 days, 2 weeks until I head into surgery. I’m traveling and don’t have access to my website and blog so I’m writing here. I had my pre-op appointment on Monday and asked final questions, which honestly just created more, questions as that part of my brain got activated. Overall I’m feeling more relaxed. That cortisol level has dropped (I mentioned it in my last video blog). I didn’t realize I was waiting – kind of like holding my breath.
Inside me, I was waiting for someone to tell me NO. To say I can’t have what I want even though I know I can have what I want YET…that inner voice – that small part of me that still believes that external forces, people have control over my life. NOT TRUE!!
I’m traveling for work right now and it’s good because I am forced to focus on tradeshow stuff and tons of co-workers and today tons of customers. I appreciate the shift. My mind and body are still letting go of the held stress and anxiety I had around whether or not this decision to have a tummytuck would really happen. What’s funny is, the doctor never doubted it. She was leaving the room and turns back to me, puts her hand out and says, “I’m so proud of you! You’ve done a great job.” It touched me deeply…that innerself who needed that acknowledgement relaxed.
It’s created a deeper question that I’m still pondering…Am I still looking for external validation? Am I seeking it or Am I just happy to receive it when it’s organically given?
February 1, 2020: It’s February!!! Wow, time really is an illusion. We think we’ll never make it through some moments and then an entire month has passed. 2020 is rolling and flowing! Just 11 more days until surgery, which I’ve been preparing for over 6 months. This journey picked up momentum about 2 years ago. And I’ve reached places and had experiences I desired along the way. Then I decided to do something physical and noticeable. Yikes!!
That’s when I let people in and became more vulnerable by being seen. The journey around celebrating and choosing myself is one that will continue to teach me the rest of my life. Partly because it doesn’t end at surgery; in some ways it just begins! And the other part is really about the on going self love and self care I will continue so my mental, emotional, and spiritual self feel like they have a healthy physical home.
This weekend I’m excited to be taking a training class on authentic relating. I value and am attracted to people who can be in the moment, share authentically and own their emotions. I strive to do that and am hopeful this training will take me to a deeper level of that desire.
Stay tuned. New video coming tomorrow! So much gratitude and love!! Happy February!
January 21, 2020: Crystal Healing
Transformation is real. Allowing healing to be felt and then integrate it is GOOD! My experience this past Saturday was profound and has opened my heart. I’m so grateful…doors are open and clearing is happening.
January 18, 2020: Remembrance
It was time for me to re-member the physical and stay true to my truth. I have deepened my faith in love and am experiencing the fullness of being a Divine being in a Human body.
January 9, 2020: Release & Transformation
It’s sometimes hard to find your center again especially on long journeys that require release so transformation can happen. Lately, I’ve been feeling – DEEPLY – the darker side of this journey.
December 31: Perfection – It’s not worth it
What’s the cost of being perfect? It’s not worth it. Learning to slow down and listen to my inner self, my body was a huge turning point in this journey.
December 28: Priority
How do I make myself a priority? The struggle I face everyday as a recovering people-pleaser.
December 27: Life Update: The Journey to Love
Introducing the journey and where it is going. Under 10 minutes long with lots of insights around why I’m doing this and what it means to me.